You Should Have Known

[sunmoonandspoon]

Title: You Should Have Known
Rating: PG-13
Characters: The Yagami Family
Notes: This was written for week #6 of dn_contest, the prompt being 'poetry'. I wasn't really expecting to write anything this week, since poetry is not my thing, but this just came to me. I thought, I've written a ton about the Yagamis, and about Sachiko, so why don't I try that in poetry form! This is a poem about about how Sachiko 'should have seen it coming', with Light. Even though there's no real evidence, and she never got to know. It's unfair, but life was unfair to Sachiko, so I think it fits. Anyway, enjoy! ♥
Warnings: Some spoilers for the end of the series.
Word Count: 365

You should have known it would never be easy with him,
you should have known it when you didn't get pregnant after months
and months
of trying. And oh, it was excruciating, oh you never wanted to have sex again,
not with basal thermometers, and charts and oh God
what happened to just making love?

You should have known that it would never be easy with him,
you should have known it when he howled and writhed in your arms
and his tiny face looked like a rotten tomato
hurled against the wall. The doctor promised an end to the colic,
not a perfect life.

You should have known that it would never be easy with him,
you should have known it when he wouldn't touch the food you gave him,
when his tongue didn't tell you but his eyes did.
They said, you can't give me what I need. You should have known,
but you never once thought
that maybe that meant that you couldn't.

You should have known that it would never be easy with him,
you should have known that it wouldn't last when it was,
when he grew up as flawless
as your mother-in-law's cooking (which she will not help you with
and which your husband never says is not as good, but
you can tell) and anyway you should have known,
no child could ever be that perfect.

But oh, how perfect, and yes you should have known,
but look at those wonderful grades, that beautiful face
that you don't know how he got because
you thought his father was ugly. He's your golden boy, your everything,
and you're bursting with pride, look at all that
you brought into this world.
How could anyone have known?

You should have known that it would never be easy with him,
you should have known it when he moved away,
when he never (okay rarely, but who was he then?) saw you, or his sister after she…oh,
you can't even talk about that.
No golden boy would turn his back on his traumatized sister (widowed mother),
or claim work as an excuse.

You should have known,
you should have known,
and now, you never will.